"I'm going to be frustrated, and it's not going to be a secret," Pettitte said. "If I don't get the job done, if I don't give us a quality start, if I don't pitch into the seventh inning or so, I'm going to be upset with the way I'm pitching."
Pettitte gave up five runs through the first three innings, but he seemed to settle down, retiring the next nine batters. And despite Pettitte's rocky start to the seventh inning, Girardi left him in to face Guillen, who had already hit him for a homer and a single.
"I decided it was his game," Girardi said.
The left-hander's elevated fastball to Guillen was his final pitch.
After being told that the Yankees had tied the score at 10 in the eighth inning, Pettitte started watching in time to see Damon's game-winning RBI single, and the veteran could breathe a small sigh of relief.
"Just makes it a lot easier to swallow that it was a win," he said. "That makes everything a lot better, that's for sure."
But those 10 hits and 10 earned runs allowed -- both of which matched career highs -- only furthered his frustration with his recent struggles on the mound. Physically, he feels good, but something else just hasn't been quite right lately.
In his previous start, at Minnesota on June 2, Pettitte gave up a lead three times and exited the game before the Twins handed the Yankees a 6-5 loss.
"From my end, it was just another disappointing day," he said. "I don't know what else to say, other than I'm just not making my pitches when I need to.
"It's just that right now, anything that can go wrong and make my life miserable right now on the baseball field is going wrong."